Thinking fast

I have been In a fast paced environment ever since I was 8 years old, helping out my parents at the restaurant. It taught me hardwork can get me anywhere but now with the internet, it is mostly about using your mind to make even more money.

But maybe… Being in such an environment made me who I am, been at the hospital and always pacing around doing odd jobs. That is where I got into vaping about 3 years ago because I needed to slow down and reflect for myself. Even though the anti psychotics is making me think faster for some reason so vaping is the solution. I know it is not good but it helps at times.

So I think that my mind always needs that constant stimulation and fast paced to keep me entertained. It is like an aredaline for my mind.

Of course this is not good for mental health if I keep up like that but maybe I am used to it by now and probably no turning back.