Socialising…

What I have found after being discharged from the mental hospital, I found more clarity in life. In the public system, it can get chaotic at times. After the first admission I started feeling worse than before I came in for some reason. Maybe it could be the environment I was locked in the first time.

But nonetheless, interacting with people whether it is presence or talking, I like to feel the personality of each one because it usually makes me think afterwards about myself as well. Sometimes people say things about you directly you never knew you had and it makes you wonder what it meant.

When I was a child I used to play with random people or with my family members.

But now… I find joy in collecting things just for the aesthetics, but it is a plus when it goes up in value. It is just a personal collection I like to play or buy with so my room has that positive feeling when I have that item. It sure does feel like I am hoarding but… I am not so sure.

But when it comes to interacting with people, I mostly have a giving mentality which is emotional for some reason.